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Cairo, Georgia

Hi all of you guys and gals,
I have been missing all of you terribly. Things have gotten a little hectic here in South Georgia over the past several months. My camera is messed up so I can't post pictures, my oldest one(Tyler) is finally realizing what is going on in our life, and my heart is sure broken. I haven't talked to anyone in a long time and it's hard to keep a smile. They say things get easier but I realized something when growing that pumpkin this year. As happy as he would be that we are doing that, he should be the one here doing it. That was his thing. He loved it more than any of you could imagine.
Today is one year that Jeff died and I'm sitting here thinking of all the things that have happened over the last 12 months. To many to list, of course.
I miss coming in here. I will get to the chat page and then I close it. I want to come in and sit and chat like I used to could but it seems like it hurts more now than it ever did. We moved this summer and the boys have been back in school for four weeks now. I hope over the next few weeks to get back into the swing of things and come and join ya'll in the room. You made life so much better for me and maybe that's what I am missing. Just to have some peace of mind and to have an adult conversation would be a God send. I have had to get my head straight and get my priorities in line for the boys and myself. We are good for each other and I am so thankful to have Tyler and Adam. We are going to continue to grow pumpkins every year because that is what we want to do. You are so right when ya'll say it is addictive! So look for me over the next week or so and I can't wait to get back into a "normal" life, if there is one. Keep us in your prayers and know how much we love ya'll.
I mean that...you folks are better than people that I talk to on a daily basis around here. Be sweet and hugs...


Allison

8/27/2007 8:46:49 AM

Somers, CT

Ally, I am sure it has been a long year and my heart goes out to you. Keep your head up. What you are going through is the natural greiving process as well as experiencing a major life change. It sounds as if you have a good handle on life and the kids are growing up. People underestimate how hard it is to lose a loved one, especially after the intial couple of months. It sounds like your boys have a great mother that cares for them and that is the most important thing. As far as everyone here, we are all just a bunch of people (who talk GP 24x7) who will welcome you with open arms anytime you feel like jumping in. As for growing, do what makes you happy. I am sure Jeff would like that more than anything, even growing a big green unmanageble plant that creates a non-tax-decuctible dependent. Please drop in whenever you feel you are ready. I am sure everyone here misses adult conversation as well. Best of luck! Rob

8/27/2007 9:07:54 AM

No Place Special

Ally I pray for you and your family. I look forward to chatting with you soon on BP...COME BACK!!!! Take care.

Mike Frantz

8/27/2007 10:12:17 AM

Antigonish,Nova Scotia,Canada

Hang in there, Ally.
I was thinking about Jeff just yesterday when I was going through some of my seeds and saw a couple of packets from him.
It's very diffiult to experience what you and the boys had to go thru last year, We'll say a special prayer for all of you at Mass this Sunday.
My wife was very sick last fall, winter and all spring and had to undergo serious surgery this summer so I too have been absent from BP's for far too long. Fortunately things are getting better now and I'm looking forward to renewing friendships via chat... etc in the near future. Take care of yourself and the lads and hopefully we'll talk to you soon in chat some evening,
Bill

8/27/2007 1:15:10 PM

Wood River, IL ([email protected])

Papa Bill,

It's good to here your wife is recovering. Welcome back.

Ally

I'll be praying for you and the boys. I hope to see you in the chat room soon. Take care of yourself.

Kenny

8/27/2007 1:55:24 PM

Minnesota

Sorry to hear things for you are not so desirable right now. May the holy spirit, and all gods angels be with you at your request. God Bless You

8/27/2007 3:02:42 PM

[email protected]

Ally,

I was wondering why you were so quiet. Just remember that we're always here for you. Prayers too.

It isn't easy but Tyler needs to be assured that there is still a future. God's plan is not always evident but you & Tyler have a part in it.

8/27/2007 3:32:00 PM

Bristol, ME ([email protected])

Ally,
We will always be here for you and you are always in our thoughts. Come back soon, we miss you loads.
Bill, Jen and the boys

8/27/2007 8:05:15 PM

Boulder County Colorado USA planet Earth

hang in there ally. Your in my prayers.

I wish i could take your pain away.

take care
capt aka aaron

8/27/2007 11:10:47 PM

Rhode Island

ally
i lost my oldest son richard this past may. his death was unexpected and to be quite truthfull i know how you feel.

one might expect that in time the hurt will lessen, i sure hope so.

my wife has been hit especially hard by his passing. its been no cake walk for ron either as richard was his only sibbling

we must all put our minds and bodies to work and put the memories in a special place only bringing them out occasionally , rather than constantly.

if we dont find that special place and dwell on it with every waking moment we will be lost to everyone around us.

hang in there
pap

8/27/2007 11:27:09 PM

Sort of Sunny Sometimes, WA

Ally, can't wait to see you again in chat! Remember, There's a light at the end of that tunnel (and it ain't Bud light.) Miss you :) Erin

8/27/2007 11:33:20 PM

Addison IL.

I know how hard it is too loose someone. I hate that feeling .All I can say is ,I know what helped me one time .Is I tied a message to a balloon and sent it up into the sky. I know it made it to heaven. I wish you and your family all the best.

8/28/2007 1:51:54 AM

Sophia WV

Hi Ally I can only say that as long as we keep memories of a loved one alive in our hearts and minds they will live on forever.I try to live everyday as if it were my last.that way there is no regrets.My prayers are with you and the boys.Robert

8/28/2007 8:46:41 AM

Www.extremepumpkinstore.com

Ally,
Our thoughts are with you, sometimes it helps to talk about it, looking forward to chatting again.

8/28/2007 11:30:04 AM

Hayward, CA

Hi Ally,
I don't know you or your family. What I want to say to you is something that I've learned time and again. I was at first hurting with the memories and reminders on a daily basis. It doesn't go away, but does in fact change... with time. It evolves into a memory that will bring a smile to your face and a warmth in your heart. I wish you all the best for you and boys.

Puter

8/29/2007 12:34:41 AM

Fairfield,ct.

i lost my father on august 17th of this year.all i can say is take it slow and easy.i went back to work right away and i was lost.take care and remember there is always somebody there when you need someone to talk to.we have all been through this.it just takes time.good luck

8/29/2007 11:15:09 AM

Lexington, Ky

Forever my ICE Ally, you know what I mean. Many thanks.

Jamie

9/1/2007 10:46:04 PM

Grants Pass, Oregon

Ally I pray for you and the boys. I miss our talks that we have shared over this last year. I will forever miss Jeff as well. Love you, Cary

9/21/2007 5:59:08 PM